We are used to operate in our life from the Self, a mini me character that is operating in our head from wich we over- identify with our thoughts, feelings and the body which leads to all kind of suffering and neurosis. All spiritual practice opens us to the bigger reality of awareness, the ground of being, where the identification with the self step back and we feel a freed up and liberated way of being. Usually we quickly fall back in the old operating mode from the self,